I am now hot on the track of creating what I have talked about for years now going on decades. There is struggle involved but I now realize that the resistance that lives inside me is my biggest nemesis. This is not unique to me but is universal and is termed the ego. It is a loud, persistent force that can shatter me with its negativity and fight. Everyone has to break through this resistive force if they have any desire of being creative or unique. I have allowed my ego to dominate me and hold me down for what feels like eons. That time is now over if I stay awake and stay focused. That is my intention. I expect to hear from the resistance frequently and with force. I realize I am in a war and I cannot relent. My soul is at stake and I very much want my soul to sing its song.
Wow, it is has been 6 weeks since my last writing. I am currently in Lake Tahoe on holiday with Grace and our puppies. It is amazingly beautiful here. We have come here in the summers intermittently over the past 20 years. Last summer was very difficult for me as I could not sleep and was extremely limited in my activities. It was the lowest I have ever been in my memory. Hiking amidst the beauty is what we love and not being physically able was very hard on me mentally. Thanks to the Liberation Procedure and lots of rehab/re-training, I am very happy to say that I am back on the trails and able to see, feel and experience the beauty again. I am deeply grateful to once again be a participator in this magical life. Nature has always been my temple/church and movement in nature truly lights my fire. Swimming in Lake Tahoe and the surrounding mountain lakes rejuvenates me in ways that nothing I have ever experienced can or does. My favorite hike here -- Five Lakes -- is a rigorous hike u...
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