I have been feeling so positive since my Liberation Procedure that I feel a bit like "those people" who say everything is great even when they are not. Mr and Mrs Positive. I certainly have NOT been like this during my time with MS. I do try to stay positive and not be a whiner but I often come off more than a bit negative. I can be cynical and sarcastic.
Since my Liberation Procedure, I have had a fun ride. However, I hit the wall the last 2 days. I have stopped one of my sleep medicines (Ativan) and had been sleeping well until the last 2 nights. I am more than a bit anxious over starting new work which is, exciting, challenging, and truly what I have wanted. I am not too flexible and relaxed in the face of change and I have been quite "wigged out" about computers, new co-workers, and general fear of the unknown. I felt very out of control. I slept poorly (if at all) the last 2 nights and subsequently, I did not feel good in my body or my mind getting up and going to work today. My hip hurt again and I felt "more "herky-jerky" than I had since the procedure.
I got through my first day OK and surprisingly had energy after work. I went with my dogs and kept being surprised how good I felt and how fast I was walking and how far I went. So even in the midst of poor sleep, stress, and not feeling very good, I had a great walk and really surprised myself. I was scared the honeymoon was over; that I was not going to continue to improve. I thankfully was wrong. It was a beautiful evening and I was moving faster than I have in a very long time.
Since my Liberation Procedure, I have had a fun ride. However, I hit the wall the last 2 days. I have stopped one of my sleep medicines (Ativan) and had been sleeping well until the last 2 nights. I am more than a bit anxious over starting new work which is, exciting, challenging, and truly what I have wanted. I am not too flexible and relaxed in the face of change and I have been quite "wigged out" about computers, new co-workers, and general fear of the unknown. I felt very out of control. I slept poorly (if at all) the last 2 nights and subsequently, I did not feel good in my body or my mind getting up and going to work today. My hip hurt again and I felt "more "herky-jerky" than I had since the procedure.
I got through my first day OK and surprisingly had energy after work. I went with my dogs and kept being surprised how good I felt and how fast I was walking and how far I went. So even in the midst of poor sleep, stress, and not feeling very good, I had a great walk and really surprised myself. I was scared the honeymoon was over; that I was not going to continue to improve. I thankfully was wrong. It was a beautiful evening and I was moving faster than I have in a very long time.
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