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I realize that the ladies of which I wrote earlier today are trapped in sadness for very good reason -- they have lost so much and just can't be happy in the midst of their mountains of loss. Duh? Of course. Why I want them to be ok so much is really the question that needs answering. Life is just not easy especially toward the end. Is that a fact or just the common perception? I guess what I want is there to be no prolonged pain. I want people to be able to adapt. Is that realistic? Is it possible? Is it even normal or desirable?

I have seen people have peace at the end of life; even at the very end. That is why I want to help people get there. I truly believe that it is not only more pleasant to have peace at the end but it is also "good for you". I personally believe in reincarnation and the "going on" of the spirit and I follow that belief with preparing for the transition as consciously and positively as possible so that one can be "launched" into the next life with as much power and punch as they can muster up. It will take them farther/higher/deeper. Where this takes them, I have no idea. But these are just beliefs that I have come to have through a lifetime of study and observation seen through the eyes of my perceptions. Is it real? I have no idea. I just believe what I believe. Writing and reading it make my theories and beliefs seem a bit crazy and certainly off base. It makes dying seem like a sport with prizes to be won and desirable levels to achieve. I believe I wandered away from the real sometime in my journey. Maybe I need to be more accepting and less judgmental of people. Is that the lesson? But people DO want peace. People do not want to accept suffering (why would they?).

Maybe acceptance brings peace. Duh again. Acceptance of all states even the negative emotions and pain itself. My ladies may not want to hear this; they want to feel better -- period! Can people have peace and even be happy at the end? What does it take to get there? Boy, do I feel confused. If I'm confused, how bout those sweet souls who have gone through it. Then again, when I think back, I realize the confusion and struggle do end -- in fact, they end together.

Comments

Judy said…
"Give me your blessing, holy son of God. I would behold you with the eyes of Christ and see my perfect sinlessness in you."
--ACIM
maybe they are rewarded with more attention by playing the victim?
Katie Kobayashi said…
...and then some are rewarded by being a narcissist...and acting like they are above the neediness and complexity of the aged...wait, wait, wait and see...hopefully we will have a Doc like "Kalina" to bare our souls to...to help us carry our burden....some make choices not to take medication because it dulls...and to be able to kavetch is sometimes more medicinal than anything. Grief comes in all shapes...no fixing, just acceptance.
April P. said…
Very eloquently said! You have arrived!

Maybe your two ladies' "lessons" aren't about self-love in this life...something to think about. We can venture a guess as to what another's path is in this life, but ultimately only that soul can know what truly is to be learned and how best to get there.

You are a magnificent being of Light and your caring is beautiful!

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