I am now hot on the track of creating what I have talked about for years now going on decades. There is struggle involved but I now realize that the resistance that lives inside me is my biggest nemesis. This is not unique to me but is universal and is termed the ego. It is a loud, persistent force that can shatter me with its negativity and fight. Everyone has to break through this resistive force if they have any desire of being creative or unique. I have allowed my ego to dominate me and hold me down for what feels like eons. That time is now over if I stay awake and stay focused. That is my intention. I expect to hear from the resistance frequently and with force. I realize I am in a war and I cannot relent. My soul is at stake and I very much want my soul to sing its song.
I received my bills this week. $ 32,000 for the Liberation Procedure. $1200 for MRV. Amazingly, my insurance(Blue Cross) covered all but $5000 of the total. I feel so fortunate that it was largely covered. I have sat on Utilization Review Committees(when I worked at Scripps) and thought the insurance company would deny coverage based on the experimental nature of the procedure. Luckily for me, I was wrong! I guess they just cannot deny need for treatment of blocked blood vessels.
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